OUR MISSION

‘This wasn’t supposed to happen.  I don’t understand.  What have I done wrong?  What did I do to deserve this?  How could a loving God let my baby die? Am I being punished?  I’m a good person …at least I thought I was.  What does God want from me?  Why doesn’t anyone understand how empty I feel?  I feel like my soul has been ripped apart and the pathetic attempts at comfort by my closest friends only make me want to scream.  They just don’t get it.  Their lives just keep going on. How can they be so casual about my brokenness?’

These are the thoughts of a mother who has just experienced a pregnancy or early infant loss.  She has every right to feel betrayed, abandoned, crushed.  This is the single worst storm of her life and she is left with empty arms and a flood of emotion that she is neither capable nor prepared to deal with alone.  Death of a child at any gestational age is heart wrenching to the mother.  The real question is how can she survive this kind of tragedy? 

We, too, have felt this overwhelming sense of brokenness.  We have felt our identities disappear as all we ever knew and believed about God suddenly became very shaky. We have seen heartbreak in the eyes of our living children, when we broke the news that the baby would not be coming home with us.  We have seen our husbands become distant and numb as they teeter-totter between being strong for us and coping the dreams they have just lost.  We have watched as their needs get pushed aside to meet the needs of the family.  We know the difficult firsts that no one else seems to recognize.  From the simple, yet crushing first, of taking a bath for the first time not being pregnant as we look at our non-pregnant body, all the way to the first month marker.  We have been there.  We know.

What we did in the midst of our sorrow is what determined whether we would survive this grief.  We reached out to others who had experienced sorrow like ours, who then reached out to God with us, and together we found comfort, and healing in that place.  This is our mission.  This is what we want to do.  We are extending our hand to you.  We will walk with you through this storm, we will pray with you, and for you, and we will seek God together.